As some of you might know... I'm a fan of this lil band from South Wales called "Attack!Attack!"... (yeah, The Blackout too, but thats not the point atm ;)) and we all try to get them on air on german radio- and tv stations... so if you have a bit of time... please write a short e-mail to your local radio station and/or a mail to music channels like MTV and maybe VIVA (even tho I don't think VIVA would play them... not enough teenie potential :(...)...


We already had a nice response from EinsLive so if you could send a mail to

Herr Rausch to the following e-mail adress 1live@wdr.de and tell them that you want to hear "You and Me"... the more mails, the better...

Thank you very much ya'll

Die Jungs von At The Farewell Party drehen am 15.02.09 ihr erstes Video!

Dazu gibt es mehrere Komparsenrollen, die zu vergeben sind. Also wenn DU Zeit und Lust hast, mit dabei zu sein, dann melde dich bitte auf der MySpace-Seitevon den Jungs unter:

www. myspace.com/atthefarewellparty

Wer zusagt, sollte auch bitte kommen. Wir brauchen zuverlässige Leute und keine Absagen!

ach ja... noch mehr News...

Leute, es ist soweit!

Das Datum für die Release Party von At The Farewell Party steht fest! Stattfinden wird die Party des Jahres am 10. April 2009 - im Rind in Rüsselsheim!
Vorverkaufskarten wirds demnächst noch geben. Also sichert euch eine Karte, schleppt Freund/Freundin, Family etc... alle mit und feiert mit uns die geilste Party, für die geilste Scheibe ever!

You know what really sucks? Some people... I mean, isn't it funny? When I'm down, my self-esteem is on the ground and I feel like shit, it's THEM who tell me "GET MORE CONFIDENCE!!"... Okay, I try... and I do... I feel better. My newest hobby is one of the reasons why I do. And sure, I wanna talk about (or, as some say "bragging" lol... hypocrite much?!)... and yes, I do some things that I've said I would never do... but you know what? Like YOU wouldn't do the same if you were in my shoes! So... now that I got a bit more self-confidence... and feel much better bout myself... the SAME people go and say "SHE'S SOMEWHAT ARROGANT NOW!!" or "I WONDER WHAT ELSE SHE IS DOING?!"... but, of course, not in my face... noooo... in the nice way... behind my back... thanks guys... this is the fucking internet... you can find EVERYTHING... that's all I wanna say about this... :-P

Over the last five years I "discovered" so many new bands... it all began with this well known band from New Jersey "My chemical romance" and lead me all through the years to other bands... I made friends through this band who again brought me closer to other bands, made new friends and so on... and yesterday I sat down and thought about the effect that certain bands have on me and my life... and now I want to write down a few things about that... my thoughts might be confusing... so don´t read if you get all weird really fast...

People tend to say that, for example, MyChem saved their lives... I can´t say that... my life was never in danger... not in that way... but I can say... they changed it... changed me... and it´s the same with Aiden... they haven´t saved it, but changed it... for the better, I would say... I am kinda sad all those guys will never know what they mean to me... what they did... words in comments, mails or letters can never express what I mean, not even this blogthingy... seeing these bands live at shows, listening to their music, reading interviews, meeting them after shows... it means so much to me... I could sit here, write down all the bands that I like or even love... and you still won´t get me... it´s a thing, a feeling deep inside my heart that I can´t put in words... and I can´t put a finger on it WHY...

Good example? This band from Wales... you know who I mean ;)... I only "know" them since last november... since Taste of chaos... and I already love those guys to bits (I can hear a few of you say "I´ve heard that before... shut up!" LOL)... and I have no idea why... the whole energy that I feel at their shows... that I can´t get the cd out of my player... that I feel weird when I don´t listen to them... that I travel all the way to Amsterdam just to see them... that I actually feel free at their shows, I mentioned it in my blog about Cologne and Hamburg, atleast I think I did... strange, I know... hahaha... and you thought I am crazy about Aiden? I still am, don´t worry...
Same with this band from Canada called "Your favorite enemies"... they have such a big effect on people... and I´m proud that I can say that I´m a part of this huge family... the effort that they put into their work on MySpace... that they try and get back to everyone who writes them mails and comments, that they barely get some rest cause of this... there are no words that can tell you how much I love you for every comment, every mail that I got over the last couple of months...

But what I try to say is... I live for music, for shows, for bands... when I love a band, then I love them with all my heart... Charlie Chaplin said once "A day without laughter is a day wasted." and it´s the same for me with music. I could never go through a day without music, it´s just impossible...

And another thought... told you... this will be confusing... but I just have to get it all out... and share it with you... or atleast try to...

I was always the shy one around people that I don´t know for a long time... it was worse with "famous" people... and it took me a while until I realized... "Damn, they are all just normal guys and girls... no need to freak out!"... that is probably the reason why some of the bands that I´ve met have the feeling that "this girl isn´t right in the head" LOL (admit it people... ) cause I don´t freak out anymore, I tend to treat them like I treat my friends, with stupid questions, weird things to say... I don´t start to squeal when I meet "my" bands, I don´t run around in weird circles when I see them unpack their stuff from the bus... and I don´t have to run up to them like there is no tomorrow...don´t get me wrong, I love meeting bands... and I definatly love it to get pics and autographs... not to go around and tell everyone "OH I GOT A PIC WITH THIS GUY!" or "SEE... I HAVE HIS/HER AUTOGRAPH!"... that is probably the reason why I don´t like to upload these pics... no offence to anyone who is doing that though... for me these things are memories of a good day/night... nothing more, but sure nothing less...
Nice thing for me... when I can tell bands that the show was awesome and that I had fun... I know,  I barely say it straight away... but I like to think that they got it without a lot of words... that I love them for the music... I know, I know... there are certain bandmembers that I have some sort of "soft spot" for... but seriously... you never took me tooo serious, didn´t you?! I mean... chances are small... and I´m totally aware of that... against everything some people might think... and that leads me to the next point...

... one last thing... about spreading rumours and lies... someone in my list has this sentence on his profile and I like it a lot... so quoting time... "Rumours are like tumours."... and it´s true...
I can´t see why it is so bad to have some sort of contact to bands and/or crew... to be nice to the friendly merchguys who is selling the shirts, to the guitartechs who are working their asses off, to the soundguys who are giving us the best sound as possible... to people who are working for records labels, for streeteamleaders, to the busdrivers who are driving "our" bands around safe, the owner of the venues where "our" bands are playing, to everyone who is involved in the whole process...  WITHOUT the expectation of a place on a guestlist or a backstage pass... just because they are nice enough to stay in contact... to talk about stuff that has NOTHING to do with the bands they are working for or with...

thank you for reading this, if you did... comments and thoughts about my weird mind are more than welcome

... until I´ll see my boys and girls again... we all meet up in Cologne and Hamburg to see

My chemical romance!!!!!

and guess what? I´m superexcited and hyper right now... not for the show (just kidding...of course I am)... but meet all the sweet and nice people that I met through and because of this band...

and for

THE BLACK PARADE

in Cologne... with a hundreds of black dressed boys and girls... a black dressed marching band and two radio stations ( I see it coming... a star will be born... haha... see... hyper)... Tokio Hotel fans... stay away... (this time... I´m not kidding)...

I bet this will be one of the best weeks in my life... Starbucks in three different cities... shoppingtour in Hamburg... Kiez... spending hours on different trains with my bebes... these things and that I´ll have some of my best friends around makes it more awesome... Krissi, Berit, Sandra, Jana, Julchen, Shady, Jule, Janne... just to name a few... I bet we´ll have a blast... 3 days darlings... 3 days!!!!!

See you all in Cologne and Hamburg (okay... how often did I mention these two cities?)

... to put a lamp on the ceiling.... true... usually one... in this case it took 3 people... one with knowledge... one who is holding the lamp... and one who talks like he has knowledge and can´t hold shit... it´s hilarious to watch...

And I? Sitting here... watching the whole scene... I won´t and can´t help... anyways...

Since the whole day is boring so far... I hope for something nice on tv tonight... doubt that there will be anything interesting... isn´t that sad... stay at home on saturday night, while everyone else is going out? No it´s not... not really... they´re all going to the disco... drinking... and then home in the morning... probably still drunk... and the music there... so not my thing...
So I´ll end up here... with my beloved sidekick (I never believed that you can become addicted to that little thing... but obviously, you can)... chatting with my lovelies, reading and posting on certain messageboards, lurking on LJ and MySpace...

On a happier note... I know you will never read that, but I have to get that out of my system *g*... if the rumours are true...

Congratulation Mikey Way and Alicia Simmons (Way? Simmons-Way? Way-Simmons? *confused*)... I wish you both the best... tons of luck... and that every of your wishes come true...

that´s for sure... *sighs*... But... monday... oh monday...

30 seconds to mars, january 29th., Cologne 

*gaaaah*... me and writing a blog about a show... where to start... our way to the venue... same procedure as everytime... we got lost... again... *g*

When we finally got there... tons of people... *eek*... thank god I found Janne in the line (babes.... we´ve lost you... so sad)... waiting there for hours... even though it was sooo damn cold... we had fun... watching all these teenies and emowannabes... it was worth it... little girls with a lot of pink and blingbling *g*...

At 8 we got in... waiting fot the supportband... sorry guys... not my thing... not too bad... but also not really good...

At 10.30... something from "Camina burana" (I believe)... and there they were... 30STM *g*... first I have to say something... I´ve never watched liveclips before... I wanted it to be a surprise... another actor... trying to be a singer??? It was AMAZING... wow... totally astonished... and as usual, I can´t remember the songs... damn... next time I took a piece of paper with me and write them down *g*... anyways... In the middle of the set, Jared told us that they´ll stay after the show and sign everything we´ll give them... maybe a bad mistake??? I´ve heard that they had to stay for hours... signing everything for everyone... *g*...

That was the only thing that was dissapointing... the signing... atleast for me... they sat there at the tables... didn´t even look up or said "hi" (even though I´ve tried to get their attention with saying "hi" or "thanx"... no chance)... and way too soon it was over... a security guard told us we had to leave... outside, me and Cat thought about it to stay and wait... but since we had school next day, we decided to leave and drive home... fortunetly... this time I found the way...

But after all... the night was awesome... lot of fun... good show... see you again in may... and again... and again... and again... and again

http://s52.photobucket.com/albums/g25/Banxone/30STM%20in%20Cologne/ my Pics.. not that much, not that good... I need more practice with my cam...

and also as usual... if you find any typos... go and get them...

...another random blogentry... I´ll go in a few minutes and get my ticket to see "My chemical romance" in cologne... I mean... come on... if you had the choice between Movie World and MCR.. what would YOU choose???




^^btw. go and register... we´re all sweet and nice (as long as you´re sweet and nice *g*)

Okay... where or how to start... erm... I won´t bother you with my "adventures" of the day me and Nana went to cologne... most of them are only funny if you know Nana *g*...

We drove to cologne (first time for me to drove a long way alone with my car, so "pssst"... I was so scared LOL)... but this time it was easy to find the venue (thank god)...

When we arrived, there where only about 10 people out there (okay... it was about 4pm... what did I expect?)...

So we sat down on a bench, talking, smoking... for all of you who weren´t there... behind "our" bench was a bush... suddenly Nana looked next to me and smiled... and I made the mistake to turn around and probably looked like an idiot right into wiLs face LOL (later, Nana told me that she´d never seen my face like that... like stone *hmpf*)...

I mean... for me... second concert ever... it was really weird to see them all walking around there... like... everyone else (yes... I know... they ARE normal people... you don´t have to tell me that... but still *g*)

Anyways... we sat there for ages, when Nana got the idea "I need chocolate cookies" and went to a shop to get some... she came back with probably the funniest bus-driver ever (Pete... we can´t thank you enough for what you´ve done later *kisses*)... and I guess the most drunk bus-driver ever *g*... so we sat with Pete and another guy from the crew (venue... I don´t know who you are... I´m so sorry), talking and drinking (I was a bit drunk, only a bit)... and more and more people arrived there...

When it was time to get in... Nana found out that she lost/forgot her ticket... hectic... oh shit... we went to the man on the counter who said that there are still tickets... but for 18 Euros then 16... and Pete gave Nana the money for the ticket (again... thank you soooo fucking much... we tried to find you afterwards... but I guess you were in your bus... sleeping)...

The supportband "Waterdown" was awesome... they made a great show there... I think I´ll see them again in november in Unna... we stood on the right side of the stage... almost front row... but... unfortunetly in front of the huge speakers (I´m still a bit deaf on my right ear, but... who cares!?)... I missed the confetti *g*... cause I went back to the merchtable to say "Hi" to Angel, he is sooo sweet and nice... like a teddy bear (says Nana *g*... I guess someone have a little crush on you Angel)... but the best was still to come...

After Waterdown... the crew had to set the stage for Aiden... (and I took a few pics of the guitartech from Aiden , I´ll send you the pics... I promise)... and then... Aiden came on... and I can´t say more but... wow... I mean.... for me it was the first time that I´ve seen them live on stage... and I don´t know if anyone who had seen them 4, 5, 6 or more times get it what I try to say....but for me it was... just wow *g* I can´t really remember the order of the songs... (in fact I can´t even remember all the songs they were playing *g*)... but... I can´t wait for the EP cause... "The suffering" is awesome... Wall of death... erm... sorry... not for me *g*.... maybe next time... "World by storm" (definately one of my favorites)... and and and... gosh... I could go on and on... but I´m still amazed... and a bit out of words...

After a few songs... they left the stage and I was like "What? Thats all?"... and a lot of people went to the bar or the exit, when wiL came back and said "We decided to play another song!" and Nana and me hurried back to the stage *g* ( I had a huge smile on my face and winked at him... and he smiled back *g* or maybe it was just me, I don´t know) and we stood better then before LOL... but soon it was really over (too soon for me... but... ).

Nana and I went to my car, cause I had something for them... and we stood outside, waiting... (YAY!!!! *teeniemoment*) when wiL came out... giving autographs, taking pictures, talking (I don´t know if I got it right, but someone asked him to spit in an empty waterbottle!? Ebay????)... Nick was really sweet... but everyone told me that... so it wasn´t a surprise... but I was waiting for Jake D. cause I had to tell him something from a friend *g* (Taylor... he remembered you *g*... and the "shorts-thing" LOL) and gave him something for his birthday a few days ago... and that was one of the best things that night, atleast for me... cause because of the "shorts thing" I bought him a "candythong"... and his face was priceless when I gave him that... first he was like "WTF?!" then he laughed at me and said that he would wear it that night. The only thing I could say in that moment was "I don´t know if I want to know more about it *g*" and I asked him for a picture with me... smiling, cause I noticed that he don´t really smile on pics. And he said "Okay... I´ll smile" (Jake... that´s not a smile *g*... thats a weird face that you´ve made *g* but my face isn´t better... so...I forgive you *g*)... anyways... the only one Nana was waiting for was Angel... and when he came she was smiling all over her face... and I have to say... even though they were in a hurry...( Angel was all like "I gotta go... I have no time... okay... one picture *smiling*) they still had the time for pics, autographs and talking to us... and I really love you guys for that... (the only one who sneaked to the bus and was gone sooo fast was Mr. Wambold, don´t think that we haven´t noticed that *g*)... but on the other side... they are on tour for like what? 19 months in a row... and they deserve a break... even if it´s just for a week or so...

Nana and me went in the bar again to change money for cigs, when we met wiL again... he hugged us (I was so surprised, cause I didn´t expect it in that moment and he said "thank you for coming and see you in spring"... and the only thing I could do was nodding, cause... you know... sometimes I turn into a real teenie LOL)

I won´t tell you the story of our way home LOL... cause it´s so embarassing... just let me tell you one thing... cologne is an awesome city... when you walk around... by car... like hell... it took us ages to find our way home... and after a while it was raining so much that I almost wasn´t able to see the marks on the road... I was terrified... LOL... but...



after all... it was totally worth it... and I can´t wait until spring when they come back... I´m definatly there...

Thank you Nana for coming with me... thank you guys for turning this day into one of the best in my life... have fun on the rest of the tour... take care... see you next year...

http://s52.photobucket.com/albums/g25/Banxone/Aiden/
Pics... please don´t steal them *begs*



If you find some typos... go and get them *g*... I´m still not fully awake... so...

Okay... I won´t start a countdown or something... just saying that I´m friggin´ excited... the last months I was complaining that none of my favorite bands play in Germany... oh how wrong I was... it all started with the From first to last concert, which was awesome... short but awesome... and they´ll come back in the next months... I so can´t wait...
And in october... one of the new bands I "discovered"... Aiden... woah... I have my ticket... watch out guys... I´m coming *g* and later that month... Panic! at the disco... what can I say... hear Brendon sing "Lying is the most fun..."... hell yeah... I still wait for My chemical romance, The Used and Taking back sunday (I missed the last concerts, lack of money... damn)... so hurry up *g*
Thats all folks... just wanted to say that... much love... Lexy